{"id":2857,"date":"2019-01-07T08:47:14","date_gmt":"2019-01-07T15:47:14","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/underthetablebooks.com\/blog\/?p=2857"},"modified":"2019-01-08T11:47:02","modified_gmt":"2019-01-08T18:47:02","slug":"beckmans-daughter","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/underthetablebooks.com\/blog\/archives\/2857","title":{"rendered":"Beckman’s Daughter"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"Beckman's<\/a><\/p>\n

Julian Beckman, thirty-nine, is known only as Beckman to everyone except his mother and daughter. Beckman\u2019s mother Alta, who is eighty-three, calls him Jewel, and Beckman\u2019s sixteen-year-old daughter Jasmy calls him Sweet Papa. Beckman lives with Alta and Jasmy in the house where he was born, a big two-story place on a half-acre at the west end of Mountain Home Idaho.<\/p>\n

Alta is German and was stunned when she got pregnant at forty-three, having been told by doctors when she was a teenager in Germany, and again by doctors in America when she was in her thirties, that she would never be able to get pregnant.<\/p>\n

Adam McKay was Beckman\u2019s father. He was seventy-two and fifteen years a widower at the time of his fruitful tryst with Alta, his housekeeper, and he was just as surprised as she when they produced a child together because he and Mavis, his wife of forty years, had never been able to make a baby. Adam was a retired backhoe operator who spent forty-five years building roads in Idaho and Washington and Montana.<\/p>\n

Beckman was four when Adam died and left his house, two pickup trucks, a gigantic turquoise Cadillac, a barely-used backhoe, and 150,000 dollars to Alta.<\/p>\n

Alta was not fond of Adam. They barely spoke to each other during their six years together, and they never touched each other again after they learned Alta was pregnant, so Alta was more relieved than sad when Adam died. And four-year-old Julian, who believed Adam was his grandfather, was relieved, too, because Alta and Jewel were inseparable, so her relief was his.<\/p>\n

Thirty years later, when Jasmy was twelve and had a school assignment to write about her grandparents, she asked Beckman what he remembered about Adam.<\/p>\n

Beckman thought for a long moment and said, \u201cHis skin was gray and he was bald except for a little patch of white hair just above his left ear. His face was quite lopsided, his teeth were crooked and gray, he smoked a stinky pipe, smelled of whiskey, and his voice rumbled like distant thunder. He watched television from early morning until late at night and often slept through the night in his armchair in front of the television. When he was a young man he built roads, but as an old man, when I knew him, he just sat in his ratty old armchair waiting for your grandmother to serve him. I never heard him laugh, but once I saw him crying at a movie on television in which a man was standing at a grave, weeping.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u2206<\/p>\n

Gig Antonelli, forty-five, a beefy fellow with longish brown hair, a wearer of colorful Hawaiian shirts and gray sweatpants and broken-down moccasins, is the owner of Gig Music, a high-ceilinged store jammed with old and new guitars, amplifiers, two dilapidated sofas, and a wall of banjos and mandolins and fiddles.<\/p>\n

Gig, who always sounds stoned even when he isn\u2019t, is standing behind the cluttered counter trying to tell the man on the other side of the counter that the guitar he wants to buy costs five hundred dollars, not fifty; but the man is French and understands very little English.<\/p>\n

\u201cUno momento,\u201d says Gig, who sort of speaks Spanish, his wife Mexican. \u201cYo tengo un hombre que parlez-vous Francais. Stay right there.\u201d<\/p>\n

Gig hurries to the back of the store and knocks on the door of one of the two rooms where he and Beckman give guitar lessons.<\/p>\n

\u201cEntr\u00e9,\u201d says Beckman; and Gig opens the door and looks in.<\/p>\n

Beckman, very tall and slim with short blond hair, has worked at Gig Music for seventeen years, ever since he came home from college. He is sitting on an armless chair facing twelve-year-old Cal Crosby, a chubby kid sitting cross-legged on the floor playing a progression of three easy chords on a two-thirds-sized Yamaha guitar, his black hair falling over his eyes.<\/p>\n

\u201cSorry to interrupt,\u201d says Gig, rolling his eyes at Cal sitting on the floor instead of in a chair, \u201cbut we\u2019ve got a French hombre up front who thinks the black Ovation is fifty dollars and I can\u2019t make him understand it\u2019s five hundred. Can you talk to him?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cSure,\u201d says Beckman, speaking quietly as he always does unless he\u2019s talking to someone hard of hearing. \u201cI\u2019ll be right back Cal. Just keep playing those chords until they start to feel automatic.\u201d<\/p>\n

At the counter, Beckman speaks fluent French to the man who wants the Ovation, the sale is made, and the man asks Beckman where he learned to speak such excellent French.<\/p>\n

\u201cMy mother,\u201d Beckman explains, \u201cgrew up in Strasbourg speaking French and German and she taught me both when I was growing up. And we still speak French and German at home, along with English.\u201d<\/p>\n

Beckman returns to the lesson room and finds Cal texting someone on his smart phone. So Beckman picks up Cal\u2019s guitar and plays a sweet run of chords, a jazzy samba, and as he plays he thinks of Jasmy\u2019s mother Krystel who last visited from Cameroon when Jasmy was thirteen, how Krystel and her husband Patrice were baffled by Beckman not allowing Jasmy to have a smart phone.<\/p>\n

Cal looks up from his phone and listens to Beckman playing the samba, and when Beckman finishes, Cal says, \u201cWill you teach me how to play that?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cI will try,\u201d says Beckman, handing Cal the guitar. \u201cIf you will try to practice for an hour every day.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cAn hour<\/i>?\u201d says Cal, giving Beckman a horrified look. \u201cEvery day?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cYeah,\u201d says Beckman, nodding. \u201cIn my experience, the only way to get really good at anything is to practice our butts off.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u2206<\/p>\n

Jasmy, who seems much older than sixteen, is tall and graceful, her skin dark brown, her raven black hair long and curly, her lovely face made of equal parts Krystel and Beckman. And because Jasmy practices her violin for two hours every evening and often cooks supper with her father and grandmother, and because her friends let her use their phones at school and she\u2019s allowed to use her father\u2019s computer in the evening when she\u2019s done with her homework, she doesn\u2019t mind not having a smart phone.<\/p>\n

Her greater concerns at the moment are that she doesn\u2019t want to leave Mountain Home to go to college, even to attend nearby Boise State, the young man she\u2019s been dating is threatening to break up with her if she won\u2019t have sex with him, but she wants to wait until she\u2019s eighteen, her friends want her to smoke marijuana with them, but she promised her father she would wait until she\u2019s older, and she is afraid her breasts might grow too large and interfere with her volleyball playing.<\/p>\n

Jasmy is six-feet-tall and may yet grow another inch or two. She is the superstar of the Mountain Home High varsity volleyball squad, and several colleges have offered her full scholarships to play volleyball for them. She is also a superb violinist, and her violin teacher hopes she will attend either Julliard or the Eastman School of Music, and the sooner the better.<\/p>\n

Beckman is six-foot-five and was playing on the Boise State basketball team when he met Krystel at the beginning of his senior year. Krystel, who is from Cameroon and six-foot-two, was a junior, new to Boise State, and playing on the women\u2019s basketball team. She spoke little English and was instantly enamored of Beckman, who not only spoke French, but was good-looking and taller than she and gentle and kind and took her on marvelous hikes in the mountains.<\/p>\n

They were both virgins when they became lovers, and when Krystel discovered she was pregnant after five months of intimacy with Beckman, she went home to Cameroon, gave birth to Jasmy, and four months later returned with her baby to Idaho to complete her engineering degree and play for another year on the Boise State basketball team.<\/p>\n

Her first day back, Krystel brought baby Jasmy to Beckman\u2019s house in Mountain Home and explained to Beckman and Alta, \u201cAfter I get my engineering degree, I\u2019m going to marry a man named Patrice in Cameroon and we are going to have two children. I will keep Jasmy if you don\u2019t want her, but I hope you will take her so I can finish my studies here and start my new life in Cameroon without such a difficult complication.\u201d<\/p>\n

Beckman, who had just graduated from Boise State with a degree in Anthropology, was instantly and ferociously in love with Jasmy, as was Alta, so they gladly agreed to take the beautiful baby girl. Krystel moved in with them for two months before her classes resumed, and while Jasmy grew attached to Beckman and Alta, Krystel breastfed her less and less until quite seamlessly Alta became Mama and Beckman became Papa.<\/p>\n

When Jasmy was three-years-old, she became enamored of the word sweet<\/i> and attached the adjective to Papa.<\/p>\n

\u2206<\/p>\n

When Beckman was four-years-old, shortly after Alta inherited what to her was a vast fortune from Adam, Alta sold the trucks and backhoe and Cadillac, locked up the house, took a train from Boise to Portland, and flew with four-year-old Jewel to Germany to see if she wanted to live in Strasbourg again rather than stay in America. But after two weeks in her mother\u2019s house, Alta became severely depressed and Jewel became depressed with her, so they flew back to Portland where Alta bought a brand new Volkswagen van and drove them home to Mountain Home.<\/p>\n

The first thing Alta did upon their return was get rid of the television. Then she tore up the old carpeting in every room of the house to reveal the beautiful hardwood floors, and she replaced every stick of furniture with fine new furniture. She then spent a year overseeing extensive repairs on the house, including a complete kitchen remodel and repainting the house inside and out.<\/p>\n

When Beckman was five and started kindergarten, Alta took a job as a breakfast and lunch waitress at the Manhattan Cafe, a job she kept for eighteen years until she was sixty-seven and baby Jasmy joined the family.<\/p>\n

Alta liked being home when Jewel came home from school, and she spent her afternoons gardening and cooking and being available to her son if he needed help with anything or wanted to go anywhere. Beckman loved gardening and cooking with Alta, and in the evenings they would sit by the fire reading aloud to each other in German or French or English; and when Alta was sewing or knitting, Beckman practiced his guitar; and they never again had a television.<\/p>\n

A gregarious person, Alta made many friends while working at the caf\u00e9, and she regularly invited two or three of her friends to join her and her son for supper. She had a handful of men friends, and there were men who courted her until she was in her seventies, but she was largely indifferent to romance and preferred the company of women and Jewel.<\/p>\n

\u2206<\/p>\n

One night when Jasmy was four and Beckman was reading her a bedtime story, she interrupted him to ask in German why everyone besides Alta called him Beckman and not Julian or Jewel.<\/p>\n

\u201cJulian is a nice name,\u201d she said in English. And then she added in French, \u201cA beautiful name.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cWell,\u201d said Beckman, closing the book and replying in English, \u201cit all began in First Grade on my first day at West Elementary School. Our teacher, Mrs. Bushnell, called roll and\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cWhat is called roll<\/i>?\u201d asked Jasmy, who was not yet in kindergarten.<\/p>\n

\u201cThe roll is a list of all the kids in the class. The teacher calls out the names in alphabetical order, and when your name is called, you say Present, which means \u2018I\u2019m here.\u2019 The teacher does this to make sure everyone has gotten to school safely.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cWhat is alkabektical odor?\u201d asked Jasmy, her frown deepening.<\/p>\n

\u201cAl-pha-beti-cal or-der,\u201d said Beckman, slowly pronouncing the two words. \u201cThat\u2019s when you read last names that start with the letter A first, and then you read the last names that start with the letter B, and so forth all the way through the alphabet to the last names starting with the letter Z. That\u2019s alphabetical order. In the order of the alphabet.\u201d He gave her a wide-eyed smile. \u201cYou know your alphabet, don\u2019t you?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cOf course,\u201d said Jasmy, nodding seriously.<\/p>\n

She then recited the English alphabet, the French alphabet, and the German alphabet.<\/p>\n

\u201cExactly,\u201d said Beckman, applauding his daughter for her excellent recital. \u201cYou just said the letters in alphabetical order, and when the teacher called my name, Julian Beckman<\/i>, one of the other boys in the class, I think it was Jay Worsley, though it might have been Johnny Wickett, loudly repeated my last name\u2014Beckman<\/i>\u2014as if he thought there was something remarkable about the name, and all the children in the class laughed.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cWhy did they laugh?\u201d asked Jasmy, outraged that anyone would laugh at someone else\u2019s name. \u201cBeckman is<\/i> your last name. And Beckman is my<\/i> last name, too. But nobody calls me<\/i> Beckman. They only call you<\/i> Beckman.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cI know,\u201d said Beckman, thoughtfully rubbing his chin. \u201cSo listen to what happened next. At recess, when I went out on the playground\u2014recess is when all the kids go outside and swing on swings or kick balls or run around shouting\u2014I was playing catch with Colin Vogel who was my best friend at the time, when a boy called to me, \u2018Hey Beckman,\u2019 and I looked at him and said, \u2018Yes?\u2019 and for some reason this made a whole bunch of kids laugh. So I laughed, too, and Colin asked me, \u2018Do you like being called Beckman instead of Julian?\u2019 And I said, \u2018Beckman is fine with me if that\u2019s what people want to call me,\u2019 and from that day on, everyone called me Beckman, and they still do, everyone except you and Grandma.\u201d He rubbed his chin again and frowned up at the ceiling as if trying to remember something. \u201cWhat\u2019s the name you like to call me? I forgot.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cNo you didn\u2019t forget,\u201d said Jasmy, giving him a playfully annoyed look. \u201cYou know I call you Sweet Papa.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u2206<\/p>\n

Many people who know Beckman wonder why such a pleasant person doesn\u2019t have a girlfriend or a wife and never has, not since his love affair with Krystel. Several women over the last sixteen years have tried to win Beckman\u2019s heart, but he remains resolutely single. The town cynics suggest Beckman is married to his mother, but this is not true, for the closest thing to a relationship Beckman has had since his love affair with Krystel resulted from Alta playing matchmaker.<\/p>\n

The woman in question, an attractive German tourist named Elise, was sitting on a bench in Railroad Park in downtown Mountain Home in June of the year Beckman turned thirty. Alta and Jasmy were walking their two dogs, Schultzee, a Dachshund, and Canine, a gray shorthaired mongrel (both deceased now) when Canine took an interest in Elise. She spoke lovingly to the dog in German, Alta responded in German, and Elise came to stay with the Beckmans for the next two months.<\/p>\n

Elise fell madly in love with Beckman, and he with her, but when Beckman didn\u2019t pursue things with Elise beyond lovemaking, she traveled on.<\/p>\n

The following winter, when Alta had a terrible flu and was feeling particularly mortal, she asked her son, \u201cI wonder why you didn\u2019t want to marry Elise. She was such a gem and you seemed so well-matched.\u201d<\/p>\n

To which Beckman replied, \u201cShe is<\/i> a gem, Mama. But I was no match for her. She loves to travel, loves big cities, loves expensive restaurants, reads the latest bestsellers, measures herself against the latest fashion magazines, and measures her life against the snootiest of cultural arbiters, none of which I care about.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cDo you think you will ever find someone to love and marry?\u201d asked Alta, who very much wanted her son to marry a good woman.<\/p>\n

\u201cYou know, Mama,\u201d said Beckman, placing his cool hand on Alta\u2019s hot forehead, \u201cI don\u2019t think much about that sort of thing. You taught me to live in the present, to be generous and kind and helpful, and not to dwell on the past or the future. And for the most part, that\u2019s how I live. If love finds me, so be it, but I\u2019m not going looking.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cWhen did I teach you that?\u201d asked Alta, soothed by Beckman\u2019s touch. \u201cI don\u2019t remember.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cYou taught me every day,\u201d said Beckman, speaking in his quiet way. \u201cYou still do. You show me by how you live, how you invite your friends for supper, how you work so happily in the garden, how you sing when you cook, how you love Jasmy, how you love our dogs and cats and chickens, and how you love me.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u2206<\/p>\n

Beckman and Jasmy play guitar and violin together, and sometimes they sing together, too. The name of their group is Jasmy & Beckman. They perform one Sunday morning a month as part of the service at the Unitarian Church and as background music for Visiting Time after the service. They also play for an hour every Saturday morning from April through October at the Mountain Home Farmers Market, and for an hour every Saturday afternoon, if they\u2019re not playing a wedding, at Crazy\u2019s, a coffee house and comic book store two doors down from Gig Music.<\/p>\n

But mostly they play together at dozens of weddings throughout the year in and around Mountain Home and Boise, for which they make a hundred and fifty dollars per hour for the two of them. They have a two-hour minimum for weddings, and they charge for travel time if the wedding is more than a half-hour away from Mountain Home.<\/p>\n

They usually play for thirty minutes before the wedding ceremonies while the guests assemble, they frequently play the processionals and recessionals, and they play post-wedding receptions. Thus during the peak months of the wedding season, spring through fall, they make nearly as much money from weddings as Beckman makes working full-time at Gig Music buying and selling guitars and giving lessons.<\/p>\n

Beckman is a fine guitarist, his chord making pleasing and sophisticated, and he can play any kind of music: classical, jazz, hip-hop, rock, folk, reggae, and the very latest pop hits. Jasmy, however, is the overt star of the duo, her tone exquisite, her improvised solos exciting and soulful. She started playing the violin when she was six, took weekly lessons from a woman in Mountain Home until she was nine, and since then has taken lessons from the principal violinist of the Boise Philharmonic.<\/p>\n

\u2206<\/p>\n

On a glorious Sunday afternoon in May, Beckman and Jasmy, dressed in the black clothes they always wear for weddings\u2014Beckman in suit and tie, Jasmy in a long skirt and elegant black blouse, her hair in a ponytail\u2014are playing Thelonious Monk\u2019s \u201cStraight No Chaser\u201d at a reception in a banquet hall in a hotel in Boise following a big wedding in a park on the Boise River. They are sitting on a small stage in one corner of the hall, having a hard time hearing each other over the din of two hundred raucous wedding guests. This is their last tune of the gig, and they are both eager to be heading home.<\/p>\n

When Jasmy finishes a long solo and she and Beckman reiterate the opening phrases of the tune, a striking woman with long brown hair and olive skin emerges from the melee with an expensive camera and takes several pictures of Beckman and Jasmy playing; and when they finish, the woman introduces herself.<\/p>\n

\u201cI\u2019m Portia Cruzero, the wedding photographer,\u201d she says, her accent thickly Spanish. \u201cI\u2019m just new in Boise from Los Angeles, and before I was there I live in Barcelona, and I hope I can see you again at many more weddings. If you would like some photographs of you for your web site or concert posters, I hope you will call me.\u201d She hands Jasmy her business card. \u201cYou have a card for me?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cWe\u2019ve run out,\u201d says Jasmy, enchanted by Portia. \u201cBut you can reach us through Meg, the wedding planner.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cI will take pictures of you for no charge,\u201d says Portia, beaming at Beckman and Jasmy. \u201cFor my portfolio and my web site. I would like to pose you in the mountains by granite. You know? I think it would be so dramatic.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u2206<\/p>\n

\u201cWasn\u2019t Portia wonderful?\u201d says Jasmy, as they drive home from Boise. \u201cI just love her.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cYeah, I liked her,\u201d says Beckman, smiling at his daughter. \u201cShall we take her up on her offer? To take pictures of us?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cDefinitely,\u201d says Jasmy, nodding emphatically. \u201cWe could frame one and give it to Grandma for her birthday.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cSo\u2026 do you want to call her or should I?\u201d asks Beckman, coloring slightly as he thinks of the beautiful Spaniard. \u201cMaybe you should. You\u2019re so much better at that sort of thing than I am.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cAre you blushing Sweet Papa?\u201d asks Jasmy, arching an eyebrow.<\/p>\n

\u201cAm I?\u201d says Beckman, coloring a bit more. \u201cShe\u2019s probably married. Don\u2019t you think?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cI don\u2019t think so,\u201d says Jasmy, never having seen her father so enamored of anyone. \u201cBut I think you\u2019d better call her right away. She just moved here and I\u2019m sure lots of men are already chasing her.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cNot if she\u2019s married,\u201d says Beckman, shrugging. \u201cHow could she not be? She\u2019s lovely and smart and charming and\u2026 she must be married.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cWhy?\u201d asks Jasmy, enjoying her father\u2019s disquiet. \u201cYou\u2019re<\/i> lovely and smart and charming, and you\u2019re not married.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cOh but I\u2019m a strange cat,\u201d he says, frowning at the road ahead. \u201cShe\u2019s not strange at all. She\u2019s\u2026 wonderful.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u2206<\/p>\n

At school the next day, Jasmy borrows her friend Celia\u2019s phone and calls Portia, and they have a long conversation full of laughter. Portia speaks French better than she speaks English, so she and Jasmy blab in French, and at the end of the conversation Jasmy invites Portia to come for supper on Friday, and Portia accepts the invitation.<\/p>\n

When Beckman gets home from work and is sitting at the kitchen counter having a beer and watching Jasmy and Alta make supper, Jasmy says casually, \u201cOh\u2026 I called Portia today.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cDid you?\u201d says Beckman, taking a long swig of his beer.<\/p>\n

\u201cShe\u2019s coming for supper on Friday,\u201d says Jasmy, making a goofy face at her father. \u201cShe\u2019s bringing bread and wine.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cThis<\/i> Friday?\u201d says Beckman, startled by the news. \u201cIs she\u2026 is she bringing her husband?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cShe doesn\u2019t have a husband,\u201d says Jasmy, shaking her head. \u201cBut she does have a daughter. Cynthia, who is nine and loves spaghetti, so that\u2019s what we\u2019re having.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cWith a big salad,\u201d says Alta, chopping an onion.<\/p>\n

Beckman takes a deep breath and says, \u201cShall I ask her to marry me when she gets here, or should I wait until after supper?\u201d<\/p>\n

Alta and Jasmy exchange looks and Alta says, \u201cWhy wait?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cI was joking,\u201d says Beckman, blushing profoundly.<\/p>\n

To which Jasmy and Alta say nothing as they carry on making supper.<\/p>\n

So Beckman goes out into the backyard with his beer and sits at the picnic table on the edge of the vegetable garden where he is joined by the large mutt Eileen and the little mutt Colossus, and he thinks about Portia and how the moment he saw her, he felt he knew her, that they had been best friends long ago and thought they would never see each other again, not because they stopped loving each other, but because they lost sight of each other in the hubbub of life.<\/p>\n

Now Beckman thinks of Krystel, Jasmy\u2019s mother, and he admits to himself, really for the first time in a conscious way, that he has remained loyal to her for seventeen years, though Krystel and Patrice have been married for fifteen years and have two children.<\/p>\n

\u201cBut I wasn\u2019t really being loyal to her,\u201d he says, speaking quietly to the dogs who are both looking at him. \u201cI was punishing myself for failing as a mate.\u201d<\/p>\n

Having said this, he further realizes that his experience of conceiving a child with the first woman he slept with made subsequent sexual entanglements seem far more dangerous to him than they might otherwise have seemed had his first sexual experience not produced a child the mother didn\u2019t want.<\/p>\n

Now he hears the back door open, a moment passes, and Alta sits beside him with a second beer for him and a beer for herself.<\/p>\n

\u201cI\u2019m happy you met someone you like, Jewel.\u201d She bumps her shoulder against his. \u201cI know you were joking about asking her to marry you, but sometimes joking tells us secrets we need to hear out loud.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cI think I\u2019ve been afraid to be in another relationship,\u201d says Beckman, hearing how true that sounds. \u201cBut I don\u2019t want to be afraid anymore.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cGood,\u201d says Alta, nodding. \u201cI never told you, but when I was twenty-five, I met a man, Friedrich, and we fell in love, and for two years we were inseparable and very happy. But when he asked me to marry him, I told him I could not have children and he was devastated and stopped seeing me. I was so sad, so depressed, I wanted to kill myself. But my mother encouraged me to come to America and see if I could be happy here. And you know the rest.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cTell me again,\u201d says Beckman, clinking her bottle with his. \u201cI like hearing how you came to Mountain Home.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cWell,\u201d she says, gazing at the setting sun, \u201cfirst I went to my cousin in Chicago and lived there for some years and had some nice boyfriends, but I always broke up with them when I thought they were going to ask me to marry them. But then I wanted to get married, so I went to a clinic and they did lots of tests, and once again they told me I would never be able to get pregnant. And though hearing this didn\u2019t make me want to kill myself, it did make me want to leave Chicago, so when my girlfriend said she was moving to Boise to work in a hotel, I asked if I could come with her. And when I saw the mountains and the lakes and the forests, I was so happy I decided to stay. I was a maid in the hotel where my friend worked for seven years, and then one day while I was cleaning a room, I tripped over a vacuum cleaner and hurt my back so badly I could hardly move for two months. The pain was the worst I have ever known. When I finally got better, I decided to look for an easier job, and that\u2019s when I answered the ad for a housekeeper and came to Mountain Home and met your father.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cLucky for me,\u201d says Beckman, giving her a gentle squeeze.<\/p>\n

\u201cLucky for you I tripped over that vacuum cleaner,\u201d says Alta, sighing as the sun vanishes beneath the horizon, \u201cbecause that\u2019s when something shifted inside me and I was able to make you.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u2206<\/p>\n

On Friday afternoon of the day Portia and her daughter Cynthia are coming for supper, Beckman is standing at the epicenter of Gig Music prying open a wooden crate containing four Epiphone guitars, when Gig says, \u201cI\u2019m thinking of selling the business, Beckman. You want to buy me out?\u201d<\/p>\n

Beckman sets down his hammer and pry bar. \u201cHow seriously are you thinking about this?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cMucho seriously,\u201d says Gig, nodding. \u201cI would have told you sooner, but this other opportunity just came up and I have to act on it pronto or it won\u2019t happen.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cMay I ask what the other opportunity is?\u201d asks Beckman, feeling a little wobbly\u2014he\u2019s worked at Gig Music for nearly half his life.<\/p>\n

\u201cA big<\/i> music store in Tacoma,\u201d says Gig, rubbing his eyes. \u201cFive times bigger than this place. Huge inventory. Not just guitars. Everything. Been there fifty years. Super duper web sales. \u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cThe fast lane,\u201d says Beckman, who prefers the pace in a guitar shop in Mountain Home. \u201cHow much are you asking for the business?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cQuarter mil,\u201d says Gig, nodding hopefully. \u201cBut if you can come up with two hundred thousand, it\u2019s yours.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cThere\u2019s only about fifty thousand dollars of inventory in the store,\u201d says Beckman, frowning at Gig. \u201cAre you selling the building, too?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cBuilding, inventory, name, reputation, everything,\u201d says Gig, scrunching up his cheeks to quell his tears. \u201cSelling my house and my duplex, too. Carmelita wants to get out of here. Her sister lives in Tacoma. Things have not been good at home lately, just between you and me, and I\u2019m trying to save my marriage and make some serious money for a change. I can\u2019t lose her, Beckman. It would kill me if she left me. So if you can pay cash, I\u2019ll go down to one-seventy-five, but that\u2019s rock bottom.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cCan I think about it for a few days?\u201d asks Beckman, looking around the chaotic store and thinking the first thing I\u2019d do if I owned this place is get rid of those two hideous old sofas and replace them with sturdy chairs and one small attractive sofa.<\/i><\/p>\n

\u201cMonday at the latest, mi amigo,\u201d says Gig, smiling sadly at Beckman. \u201cBut ma\u00f1ana would be ideal.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u2206<\/p>\n

Riding his bicycle home after work, Beckman imagines various scenarios without Gig Music in his life, and he keeps seeing himself converting the garage into a suitable place for giving lessons, which vision morphs into enlarging the garage and creating a recording studio.<\/p>\n

\u201cThough I do like getting away from the house,\u201d he says, turning onto the quiet street where he lives. \u201cAnd I like buying and selling guitars. I really do.\u201d<\/p>\n

As he walks his bike up his driveway, Colossus and Eileen come to greet him, and as he puts his bicycle in the garage, he has a grandiose fantasy of buying Gig Music and<\/i> converting the garage into a recording studio\u2014the audacity of his imagination making him laugh.<\/p>\n

\u2206<\/p>\n

Only when Beckman enters the kitchen and finds Alta and Jasmy cooking up a storm does he remembers that Portia and her daughter Cynthia will be arriving any minute now; and he gives silent thanks to Gig for offering to sell him Gig Music and thus quelling the worrisome thoughts that have besieged him ever since Jasmy told him that Portia and Cynthia were coming for supper.<\/p>\n

Jasmy is wearing a beautiful dress Alta made for her, yellow cotton painted with big red roses; and Alta, who rarely wears anything other than trousers and a sweater over a shirt, is wearing a lovely blue dress she last wore when Beckman graduated from college seventeen years ago.<\/p>\n

\u201cDoes this mean I am to wear a dress, too?\u201d asks Beckman, arching an eyebrow.<\/p>\n

Alta and Jasmy ignore his jest and Alta says, \u201cGo take a shower. They\u2019ll be here soon.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cI\u2019ve laid out some clothes for you,\u201d says Jasmy, stirring the soup. \u201cYour teal dress shirt and black corduroy pants and your purple leather belt. You don\u2019t have to wear them, but I hope you will.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cI will,\u201d says Beckman, clearing his throat, \u201cbut I want to say two things to both of you before I bathe and embark on my dressing ceremony.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cYes?\u201d says Jasmy, gazing expectantly at her father.<\/p>\n

\u201cWe\u2019re listening,\u201d says Alta, pausing in the act of opening a bottle of wine.<\/p>\n

\u201cI would caution you to temper your expectations vis-\u00e0-vis Beckman and Portia becoming an item.\u201d He pauses portentously. \u201cAfter all, we only spoke to her for five minutes and\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cFifteen,\u201d says Jasmy, quietly correcting him. \u201cAnd?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cYou both look gorgeous,\u201d says Beckman, deciding not to tell them about the Gig Music situation until Portia and Cynthia have come and gone. \u201cAnd I love you.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cThat\u2019s three things,\u201d says Jasmy, her dimples eloquent.<\/p>\n

\u2206<\/p>\n

After supper, Beckman and Jasmy and Alta and Portia and Cynthia retire to the living room, and before any of them sit down, the adorable nine-year-old Cynthia whispers something to Portia, and Portia, who did not wear a dress, but looks fabulous in black jeans and a burgundy tunic, smiles at everyone and says, \u201cI told her about your music and she wants to know if you would play for us.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cWe thought you\u2019d never ask,\u201d says Beckman, taking his guitar from its stand by the piano. \u201cDo you have a favorite song, Cynthia?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cThank you next,\u201d she says, nodding hopefully.<\/p>\n

\u201cYou\u2019re welcome next,\u201d says Beckman, winking at her.<\/p>\n

\u201cNo, Sweet Papa,\u201d says Jasmy, getting her violin out of its case. \u201cThat\u2019s the name of a song. Just get a nice groove going with a couple closely related augmented seventh chords and I\u2019ll play the melody. It\u2019s five or six notes repeated over and over again. And that\u2019s the song.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cAh,\u201d says Beckman, sitting down on the one armless chair in the living room and playing a lush jazzy sounding chord. \u201cWho wrote this song?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cAriana Grande,\u201d says Cynthia, nodding. \u201cShe\u2019s my favorite singer.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cDo you like her, too?\u201d asks Beckman, looking at Portia and wondering if she really likes him or just seems to like me because she\u2019s so incredibly charming.<\/i><\/p>\n

\u201cShe\u2019s not my favorite,\u201d says Portia, looking at Beckman in a way that means she really likes him. \u201cBut I\u2019m forty, so I think maybe I\u2019m a little too old for Ariana.\u201d<\/p>\n

Jasmy plays an E on the piano, and she and Beckman tune together.<\/p>\n

\u201cMama loves The Beatles and jazz and Spanish music,\u201d says Cynthia, sitting on the sofa beside Alta. \u201cBut I love Ariana.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cEveryone likes different kinds of music,\u201d says Alta, smiling at Cynthia. \u201cI like The Beatles, too, but when I was young I was crazy about Charles Aznavour. Have you ever heard of him, Cynthia?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cNo,\u201d she says, shaking her head. \u201cI mostly listen to Ariana, but I like Justin Bieber, too.\u201d<\/p>\n

Beckman plays the lush jazzy chord again and Jasmy says, \u201cMore minor and not so complex.\u201d<\/p>\n

Beckman obliges, Jasmy nods, Beckman finds a second chord kin to the first, and Jasmy says, \u201cNow back and forth in a kind of Girl-From-Ipanema<\/i> groove.\u201d<\/p>\n

He finds the groove and Jasmy plays the brief plaintive melody over and over again; and Cynthia gets up and does a little dance while whisper-singing the words of the song.<\/p>\n

\u2206<\/p>\n

At high noon on a Thursday, seven days after Portia and Cynthia came for supper, Beckman is standing behind the counter at Gig Music stringing a guitar, the building and the business now belonging to him, the decrepit sofas gone, but nothing else yet changed.<\/p>\n

The bell above the front door jingles and Beckman looks up, surprised to see Portia entering the store.<\/p>\n

She crosses the room to him and smiles flirtatiously. \u201cDid you forget we were going to lunch today?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cI didn\u2019t so much forget,\u201d he says, gazing in wonder at her, \u201cas cease to believe you would come.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cOh Julian,\u201d she says, looking into his eyes. \u201cI barely slept waiting for this moment.\u201d<\/p>\n

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